So I’ve been reflecting today on things in my life and the choices I’ve made. I’ve made some shitty choices in the men department. I haven’t had the best role models in relationships. Hell my father can’t stay faithful to anyone and my mom is faithful but blind as hell to the men she chooses. Both parents married 3 times :/ I’ve tried so hard to be my own person and not be like my parents but damn I’m just like my mother. When I invest my heart and feelings I’ll stay loyal even when I shouldn’t. I don’t get why I let myself be treated so badly. I hate not understanding things!
sheischaosjs asked: Your so : open, and you know who your are or want to be and a total badass anyone would be lucky to have you in their life. A jewel is a jewel.
awe, thank you so much. Sweetest message. Thank you for making my night <3
blackcoffeeblonde asked: You have such an honest blog. Haha I know that sounds stupid but it's true! Stumbled across you the other day and I'm hooked! Just lettin ya know :)
That really means a lot to me because that’s what I try for. It’s not stupid at all. Thank you so much for taken the time to say that <3
Sometimes I feel like I’m going through life numb. I go to work, come home and go to sleep. I try so hard to be strong for everyone else. I always have since I was a kid. I always took care of everyone. I was the shoulder to cry on. I kept how I felt silent and it tore me up inside. What is the point to opening up if people just ignore it? I say how I feel but the people who matter don’t listen. They just want to hear what they want. It just doesn’t matter! I’m so sick of wearing a smile and pretending everything is ok, because it’s just not. IT’S NOT OK!!!!
It is hard to be strong
When someone special leaves your life
And it doesn’t get any easier with practice
Where will I go
When there’s no where to go but away from you
What will I say
When everything’s been said
But we’re through
What lies ahead
When it all lies behind
But the memories
Will I have the strength
To wipe the tear from my eye
To give one last hug
And whisper “Good-bye”